Childish Things

I would like to roll up in a ball and sleep.
I would like to snuggle under the sheets and forget
that I have to do stuff.

I would like to hibernate
and have all my troubles pass me by.

I would like to be satiated and satisfied.

eat and be satisfied
fuck and be satisfied
sleep and be satisfied
get high and be satisfied
play music and be satisfied
find god and be satisfied

Did you ever wonder why life is such a struggle?
Why is it so hard to be satisfied?

and other people get there so easily it seems,
they put little effort.

Maybe it is that they put little effort all along the road
and they don't wait till the fuckin' end like I do,
and I have to make up what I missed along the road

I went by the field of the slothful,
and by the vineyard of the man void of understanding;
And, lo, it was all grown over with thorns,
and nettles had covered the face thereof,
and the stone wall thereof was broken down.
then I saw, and considered it well:
I looked upon it, and received instruction.
Yet a little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to sleep:
So shall thy poverty come as one that travelleth;
and thy want as an armed man.

and I want to slumber, to sleep
I want to be satisfied
with sleep
with everything carnal
with all things spiritual

have you ever felt lost?

I look at my spiritual upbringing.
I quote from it all the time.
and I reject it.
I see the wisdom
and the folly

I wish for Jesus, but Jesus is not real
I long for God, but he is not here

I look at people who believe, and I don't begrudge.
It is better to be ignorant and happy
than to be wise and full of turmoil

Adam and Eve ate from the tree
of the KNOWLEDGE
of good and evil

Do you remember when that happened to you?
When you ate of that tree?
When you found that life was not all innocent, childish, unencumbered?

Do you remember
when you put away childish things?

There, see it?  I pull the scriptures out of my hat of tricks.
I feign wisdom by quoting wisdom

Are you like me?  I think maybe, and in that way
you can understand me.
Like I understand you.